it's what you make of it

"You'll never be happy." She gazes into my shocked eyes as she says this. "You're always going be looking for bigger and better. This applies to your career, love life, all aspects of your life."

I sit across from her with my palm faced up just awe-struck by what she said, my insides churned confirming the validity of her statement. Deep down, this wasn't about whether or not I believe her, I knew this is true. I was fully aware of the dark energy I'd been carrying, it was the very thing that compelled me to go in. I thought she'd give me something to hope for, something concrete to look forward to, instead she tells me that this is it. This level of fml will be a constant for the rest of my life. 

Life is 10% of what happens to you 90% is how you react to it. 

I could wallow in what this woman said, and spend the rest of my life with the self fulfilling prophecy, or I could take this as a wake up call, make it my turning point and never revisit such a level of dispare again. 

I'm going to take this and run with it. I leave two weeks from today, to travel a new foreign land and reconnect with family I haven't seen in 5 years. I plan to step over my comfort zone thresholds and do some soul searching while I'm free of my Minnesota lifestyle. This time away will be my escape from the restraints of pressure, work, stress, and other distractions. 

I'm going to clear my head of everything that I've been taught, let go of the reigns and see what happens. Everything will fall into place, I know of it.

Things have already improved immensely and I know it will continue to do so. 

Remember, when you hear bad news, or something does not go your way: Trust that there is a reason, and most importantly, use that as fuel, or the springboard that will push you towards better.