Stupid, Crazy, Love.

Yes, I did borrow a title to an upcoming movie. It seemed to fit pretty well as I was struggling to find a fitful one.

From the very beginning, we were brainwashed into wanting a valuable gem. It was introduced in childhood and became an ongoing thread in our lives. It was as ridiculous as magic, seemingly achievable in real life and of course, it was the key to happily ever after.

Makes me wonder, would we have wanted it otherwise? Would we feel so inadequately satisfied without such a thing? 

What I'm speaking of is...L.O.V.E.

First of all, I nearly cringe writing the word cuz really, it bites. As 'magical' as it looks in Disney movies, and happy it makes the leading lady in romantic comedies, we all know it's kind of a sore spot for everyone.

 This little 'spell' brings one into a realm of heightened emotion in every way, shape and form.  It's as exhilarating as it is destructive. It brings out the good, bad, and ugly in us. The addictive cloud 9 sensation you get and feeling of invincibility have you hooked and continually searching for a stable source. If we weren't conditioned to want it since our first Disney movie, would this still be the case? If it's not, I definitely have a bone to pick with Mr. Walt and every one else who perpetuate this ridiculously glamorized concept. 

If you take away all the bells and whistles...what would be left? As in, no Valentines, cookies, chocolates, floating hearts and flowers (that last a whole day) -- would there still be meaning? Think about it, all that shit can be faked by just about any one, how is it that we use these to decide who we're going to be with? The indicators we're given to use are FLUKES, why can't we be showed what to really look for in a person? oh yeah...not as interesting and definitely doesn't churn as much money as a movie theater proposal. DUH.

We're so wrapped up in googly eyes, the perfect song and what is done for us that we completely miss the ball on what really matters. Because of this, we'll pass on what we really need and accept the crap society has led us to believe we need. I could put money on the theory that we are all looking for the wrong things. Costing ourselves the truest of things ( whatever the hell that is.) and signing ourselves up for a serving of soul destructing experiences.

Don't fall in the trap people, the sweet haze of honeymoon lasts probably a whole couple months and claws never cease to appear later. We gotta focus on what really matters, still, if only we knew what that is. Why else is divorce so freaking high?

Not only is it an achievement to find this gem, not finding it makes many of us feel very inadequate. Left wondering why we're excluded from this game, we run around with our heads cut off trying to find it. Smart? Hardly.

Plus, who in the world came up with 'follow your heart'? To this very day, I wonder if that's ever a wise thing to do. I also wonder what the most prominent choice is, heart or head?   AND why is this always two different things, shouldn't that be a warning sign? Oh my mind says one thing and my heart says another...do they ever come to a consensus?! Are they always wanting two different things? Which is the best choice? Lordy.

So why is this the most sought after gem? Shouldn't any self sufficient person be able to be happy? ( I'm sure there are some out there, but not talking about exceptions here) Or will we always be dissatisfied in singledom?

 I'm sure I speak the thoughts of many in this entry, cheers.

what do YOU want?

"Remember that you don’t have to justify to anybody why you want something. Your wants are valid of their own right, regardless of what they are."


                                                  This is a great quote, if only it were true in the world of Vu. ( haha it rhymes)


Definitely an ideal situation but absolutely not applicable to my life. In a battle of traditional vs modern day perspectives I always find myself having to DEFEND my wants. Whether it's why I like to listen to music as I sleep, or I like my desserts with my meals.  And it's a funny thing, you would assume that it's all gravy if I decide for myself. I mean, I'm not making your decisions. Trust me, I wouldn't want to if I could. 
 So then how you bout to tell me what is and is not okay for me to do with my life? 


Maybe the next time we give advice, we remind ourselves that the choice is ultimately the receiver's. And as one who seek's advise, remember to incorporate your own judgement-the consequences are yours.


I read this quote off of some other blog that emphasized how we become our own barriers to happiness. This is true, however without the constraints of society we wouldn't have much to go off of. So let's thank ourselves while keeping in mind that it's the media and choices of other people also contribute to this. 


...here comes the sociology 


As 'free' as we are here, we are tightly bound -mummy style- by...I don't even have an appropriate word for it. We are subliminally told how we should look ( unnaturally skinny and or reminiscent of the Hulk) how we should live ( big houses, nice cars, pools in the back) what should make us happy ( $$, and love) and how could I ever forget The Climb up that social ladder?! All of these require that we step on another to achieve, and I know many unhappy people who've achieved this much. It's the LITTLE things that matter. That smile someone gave you while you were upset, or maybe that favorite song on the radio is where you're going to find it.


Life is a rat race, we're all competitors, and the finish line doesn't even exist. I love how much sense this makes!The world is fighting against our individual pursuits of happiness. It's virtually impossible with these circumstances.


 Let's not be too intimidated, against the current gets lonely... but, at least happiness is reachable!

"I give great advice but I seldom follow it."

                                                                                                      --  Alice in Wonderland

haha truth.

caged bird syndrome

It sickens me to the point of rotten insides how much time I spend -I mean waste- buried in the world wide web. This alternative realm provides me with the freedom I don't really have otherwise and brings me to friends I wouldn't contact in any other way. Through my trusty laptop I can keep up with my friends, stay up with them as long as I want to and all without pissing my parents off. Sounds like a great solution right?

Too bad this only frustrates me more.

We shop, talk to friends, watch movies, and order pizza all without getting off our asses. I can never help but I think of those fluffy people on Wall-E and the fact that we are slowly becoming them. It's rare that I can have a conversation without someone who isn't either texting someone else, stalking on facebook, or tweeting about nonsense. At home, each person (parents included) is stuck in a comfy place cuddled up with their piece of technology. We rarely talk to each other, or interact for the most part and everyone is just zonked out. Our bodies have become immobile cases  because all the action happens at the touch of a button. SAD.

I hate this, but I do it. I hate being trapped but I am. And when you're the only one who looks up from the computer screen every now and then only to find that no one else even notices, you revert back. When no one is off their technology, being off yours is virtually pointless. 

What a waste of life. Sure, the possibilities are endless with the use of internet, we've been the closest ( as in knowing what's going on with people) but the MOST DISTANT ( as in not mentally being there with the person you're sitting next to) wait..this is a good thing? 

How disabled do we feel without our phones these days? naked. just lost.
 I could care less, but that's only because no one uses the 'speech' feature on the phone anymore.
Having no laptop when I'm cooped at home would probably put my brain into a frenzy, I hate to admit that I'd prob die...or want to.

So really, does this liberate or handicap us? 

Who plays 'house' anymore when you have sims? Real football vs fantasy? Maple story vs ...iono a real life parallel to that one... pretty soon, we won't even know how to write anymore, what with electronic signatures nowadays.

And seriously, I feel like the only one who has a problem with this.

I personally would like to NOT be on the computer the majority of the hours I'm awake. I wanna see sites, eat tons, and play. for real. ( this wing clippin' thing my parents have goin sucks ass.) a curfew is one thing, but being bitched at every time to leave the house too?...C'MON.

There is so much more to life, why am i caged from it?! 

Okay, that is all.

It's just been an agonizing bore of a day and that's just when the frustrating vent comes out. 

My brain might just implode from over dosage of facebook, twitter, now blogger, and everything else there is to do online. 

Things could probably be worse. ( stranded on a sinking ship, or dying of hunger type of worse) So it's kind of petty to complain, but BLAH!

I'm not chewing onto this curfew thing very well. I spent a lot of my years coloring in the little lines of structure my parents made for me, I think it's about time that I was able to run my own life a little bit. And it's too much to ask! 



And wouldya look at that, I am out of words to say on this. It's when you feel the most that words just don't come.