I'm thirsting for a hiatus from all elements that make up this little dance I call life. I have been dragging my feet through my days :working, eating, sleeping: rinse and repeat. I don't feel spiritually stimulated in the least, and this is the biggest indication of how far off from myself I have become.
The commitments I've made in my life have over due contracts, I don't feel like my extracurriculars align with what keeps me alive any longer. I can't remember the last time I checked in with what I want, everything I've been involved lately has been a continuation of what I formerly committed to a long ways ago.
I can't shrug urge to drop everything I'm doing and recalibrate myself. I've let my little world drive me, as opposed to the other way around. I'm fulfilling others expectations, I thoughtlessly do 'what I am supposed to', and I feel so trapped because of it.
This isn't me. Post Australia I was goin' and gettin' it. Post grad, I was worried, yet charged to chase. Only a few months ago, I was enthused by the risks and the seemingly foolish decisions I made. Quitting my job for what I felt were the right reasons, and pursuing my yoga certification for example. These two things already put me in a position now that isn't what I intended. As a result, I've reverted back to my old ways, struggling to trust my own gut. It's a shame, because that's where all the answers are.
