once upon a time...

 Remember the days when we were part of the world that believes in magic?

This world allows you to be you and no one else, you never knew to compare, you never knew to think anything but happy thoughts ( besides plotting to snatch cookies from the table)

 the worst a boy could do was snatch your toy

 your worst fear is the 'monster' that your teacher says is in the hallway ( to keep the class quiet)
but you were fearless when it came to jumping off the swings, climbing too high and running in front of cars

 your mom and dad were your biggest heroes, second to actual superheroes, of course

cartoons were celebrities

fairy tales were historical

injuries stopped hurting when someone kissed it

you could dance like nobody's watching without the help of alcohol...or music even.

sleep was incorporated into the schedule

snow on the ground is a flavorless snow cone

you questioned teachers on their knowledge of fairytales

you expressed exactly what you felt

you wrote to Santa and left milk and cookies out for him

things like Christmas tree erasers were enough to brighten your day

money grew on trees, and the only thing you spent was energy

you broke into song in random parts of the day

mini me!  she's feisty too lol

Remember? Those were the days, were they not? Your brain didn't have the capability of being so stressed, worried, and negative. That's the life.


Good thing I'm still a part of this world, not only that but I play a crucial role in the lives of the kids I see at work everyday. I tell stories as if i lived to tell the tale, I have the power to fix every owwy ( whether i just kiss it or put a dora bandaid on it), I lead by example, I 'know' everything, I mediate all conflicts between kids, I become a monster to make you run, I'm a shoulder to cry on, I'm the rock you hide behind if your scared, I teach you manners and I don't respond till you use them, I teach you letters knowing that you'll have to make them into words later.



There's the job description that describes what grade and what is expected of you,

Once you're a part of this world, however, you'll begin to see what your job really entails.

Maybe now you understand why I love what I do?

I'm a girl on a mission and this is what taking the bull by the horns looks like.
http://ngocbichvu.blogspot.com/ my happiness project. check it =)

Do girls "diet", wear makeup and dress to impress guys?
                                                                                    Or do they do this to impress or compete with girls?


First world problems.
Those who have the resources to eat starve themselves for vanity. Those who are emotionally unstable feast to the point of sickness.

 Those who are perfectly fine will never be happy with their own appearance. real talk, NEVER.


Why?

#trouble

They will wine and dine you.
                                                                                                                                   and guilt you for it.

They will do anything and everything for you.
                                                                                                               and expect something in return.

They will say all the right things.
                                                                                                                       because they're good at it

They will sweep you off your feet.
                                                                                                                                just like the movies.

They will look at you with desire.
                                                                                                        because they want something more

They will show you off to everyone.
                                                                                                               to make their friends jealous

They will bring you flowers, chocolates and bears.
                                                                                                                               because it's "sweet"

They will make you feel unstoppable.
                                                                                                                      because you'll fall in 'love'

They will wipe your tears.
                                                                           so that you'll still go to them when they make you cry.

They will make you feel like the only girl in the world.
                                                                                            so that you don't suspect them of cheating

They will make you feel safe.
                                                                                                    so that no one else has to protect you.

They will put a ring on it.
                                                                                                                         so that you won't leave.


Abusive relationships resemble 'normal ones' from the movies. Sometimes you gotta read between the lines.

" People don't buy what you do, they buy why you do it." -Simon Sinek

I'm not buying bitches.


This idea that people are not always who they seem, and  that everyone is capable of breaking you down to a fine pulp has become the ball and chain on all my relationships. It's a shame on me if I can be fooled twice.  I get that not all guys are like this, I guess I'd rather right them all off than get it wrong again.

soo...what now?

I know it's a little heavy for my good natured blog, but it's keepin' me up. plus, I'm starting to #keepitreal

Hold up, wait a minute

"Pace of the world I just wish I could stop it

                                                     Try to appear like I've got it together

I'm falling apart"- Emmy Rossum

 My schedule is filled with productive activities, even rest isn't wasted time because it's something I've earned. I've learned to scarf down my meals in 10 mins or less and get to and from work in at least 20 mins. Errands are saved for the weekend and lunch breaks. Leisure time? Whenever I have a space in my google calendar. Sure, I'm really productive, but I'm not experiencing as much personal benefit from this.  Winter break is approaching my friends who are still in school, and I'm realizing that there will not be any slowing down of any sort for me unless I take initiative myself.


 It's getting lonely running these laps on my own, 
I really need to take it easy and re-evaluate what I'm doing.