If I could be anywhere....

This is where I'd choose to be

Fall Bucket

An apple a day keeps the doctor away
I've been eating apples so as to never
have to see a doctor, ever.

I have adopted new appreciation for life. I don't have a clue where it came from but this live it up theme from my summer is definitely carrying over into my fall. I always tended to mill through my days, preoccupied with some sort of problem. I realize now what a waste of a day that is.

 I've minimized my dark days to a few hours to mope and carry on. I do have to say it's been working out real well.


Life's too short to fret too much, there are much bigger problems out there. I can't cry over spilled milk when there's devastation all over the world, that just doesn't make sense.


Summer's been accomplished, so here's the debut of my FALL BUCKET!

Visiting an apple orchard. I do this every year. It's my favorite fall activity <3

Bake cookies. Nothing like fresh, warm cookies on a cold fall day.

Photo-walk when the leaves change. I need to take my camera out to play this season.

Partial credit for this one. leaves haven't changed yet and i cant find the charger for my camera =/

weaver lake on a fall morning =)

Make a tie blanket for the winter.

completed and ready for winter!!

Play piano. again. I've let it go, sore spot that I can't have the lessons I wanted. Time just doesn't permit.



Go to a wild game. That's on my life's bucket. What am I waiting for?

Vancouver Canucks ate ice. Worth every penny <3

Brought my partner in crime

Start my Happiness Project. No better time than the present!
 read it here =)  http://ngocbichvu.blogspot.com/


Finish two books! I need the brain food.


See a play at the Guthrie. The good Broadway shows are in the winter, fall be for plays.



Gopher Football. I'm in the country this year, no excuses.

To ensure that I'm recording these events in my life, I've started a new rule. I will check all of these bullets with a picture. This way, looking back will be much more visually pleasing.

So much change this fall, I'm starting to get a grip on things, but it's going to take me some time. Regardless, I'm ready to roll and I'm very excited for the coming months.

I was running off with the kangaroos last fall, but I being in MN doesn't mean the fun is over.

I'm beginning to live like #eachdaycouldbemylast

I've been reading Dr. Seuss to the kids I've been tutoring just about every day. I think it took an older Ann to really appreciate the genius this man really is. The books are exquisite and they speak the truth in such an intriguing way, Ah! I really can't get enough.

This is one of my favorite quotes:

(although I could post a favorite quote out of one of his books just about every day).

Turns out, I really do have a brain.

I'm kickin' off my work heels.

Children's Home just got a new preschool teacher.

I am pumped.

challenge accepted

handpicked dandelions <3

"As one door closes, another opens." 

Everything I'd known to be consistent has changed this fall, it's not necessarily bad, its just that change is a little challenging for me. 

After 8 years of teaching the same kindergarten class at Sunday school, the door is being closed. All the other teachers, including myself, were shocked when it was announced that I will be working with the senior class. This will be different, good different. I've been a part of two confirmations, but this will be a journey, for all of us. My brother is in this class this year, that'll be weird. But it's okay, we're family, it'll bond us together a little more.

I'll miss teaching my babies, so much. My initial reaction was to do both, I'll be part of both classes. THIS IS MY PROBLEM. 

" i have a surprise for you"

I don't like the word "No". 

I've always heard it. There's always something I can't do, can't see, can't touch, can't go just because NO MEANS NO. Because of this, I've become the person who doesn't use the word. I've been stretching myself thin for as long as I can remember. It takes a whole lot out of me, I'm trying to stop this.

After speaking with a few other teachers, I decided that it was unfair for me to divide myself between two classes when each of them deserved a teacher who is fully dedicated to them. ( Ok, it might sound like I take this Sunday school thing too seriously, but think. I was the very first teacher they have, and now I'll be the very last. It's about the impression I leave, their attitudes about church.) I'm truly excited. This is something I've been wanting to do. The fact that it was laid in my lap without me making any effort towards it proves that this is how it's supposed to be.

silly faces for halloween

No more shoe tying, hand holding, little hugs, and vibrant smiles. I'll be trading those in for teens. haha. This is where I'll leave an imprint on the world. 

If I can inspire 5 yr olds to give charity, I can inspire 17 yr olds to change the world. 

Challenge accepted.

expiration dates aren't just for food.

Earlier at work today I was on the phone with a new patient,  it was about mid-morning. I had three Reese's peanut butter cups in my stomach and my day was going fine as usual. This person on the other line is quickly agitated that I've asked her various questions (i.e. her name, her birthday) you know things a medical facility kind of needs to know while scheduling an appointment. Without rhyme or reason, her attitude escalates from mildly impatient to flat-out rude as my tone went from the 'sing songy how can I help you' to 'bitch say whaaat'. Okay, maybe not that extreme, but I was livid, shaking. If you insist on being rude to me, you are only going to get rudeness back. I believe in customer service, but I live by the respect rule. It's earned, and it's reflected by how you treat people. CHECK IT, honey.

Moral of the story. I personally feel the world works this way as well. Whatever attitude you emit into the world is reflected right back at you. I'm not gonna bitch at the world much longer, getting real tired of being bitched at..

This is why I am putting an expiration date on my current attitude. I've been cursing the skies for days, constantly stressed, short fused, and literally flat out angry at the littlest things. I'm going through quite a transition right now, so I'm allowing myself just another week of pouting, and hating the world through flustered tears. There's always two ways to go with things. The easier is to hang on to comfortable dissatisfaction ( it's how everyone has led by example). I've been determined to resist falling into the trap of unhappiness as a lifestyle. My attitude is going to turn around come one week and eventually I things will turn around on its own.

Instant gratification, being on the beach. ( Salisbury Beach, Mass.)

Why one week? Why not tomorrow? Expiration dates designate when a product isn't good anymore. I need to allow myself to feel it, covering it up in a vice grip doesn't change the fact that it's there. It's healthy to feel this way, but it's necessary to create a limit. 



Here's to acknowledging my current situation and looking towards brighter days in the future.

aspirations

Someone's always gonna come kickin' you down when you're feelin' alright. It's kind of a given.

You shrug it off when you can, absorb nothing of the sort and get on with your life. Show them the door and surround yourself with a seamless support system. But what if it's crucial that they remain in your life?

This constant criticism, 'tough' love thing is gettin' real old. I may be sensitive, heck, who am I kidding I could get upset every time the wind changes. regardless. no thanks.


Please, PLEASE give me the cold shoulder, I'd rather have that than your negativity.