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"What would your ideal job look like?"

The interviewer looks at me curiously as I'm sifting through the files in my mind for some sort of answer. I'm usually good at interviews, with the exception of having to talk about myself so much, I love connecting with people, whipping out the charm, and talking about all the experiences I've had and how they make up who I am today. 

My body began to heat up as I realized how clueless I was of this. I'm frantically racking my brain for any trace of my " Big Picture" to no avail. I simply couldn't.

 It sounds like such an obvious question, why is it that I'm at a loss for words? It doesn't make sense.

I literally don't know what I want.

This is the first time in my life that I've ever felt this way. I've always had some sort of an idea, but here I was interviewing for a job I wasn't feeling strongly about, not sure of what I want from my life. It's a strange feeling, not the good strange either.